Get to know me

For as long as I can remember I have always been empathetic. I feel deeply for the homeless, the starving, the sexually, mentally, emotionally and physically abused men, women, and children of our world. And I have always felt the need to help these people in any way I can.

But I have also felt guilty because I walk past them and do nothing for them. I know now that it is impossible for me to help them. I am only one person. And I have my own baggage to sort through. I have skeletons in my closet. And I need to take care of myself first. However, the fact that I am empathetic will not change.

I stumbled upon a class on Skillshare, “Poetry I: Introduction to Making Poems” by Cameron Conaway, and thought “This sounds fun.” So I took the class and learned how to write poetry. It was more than fun, it was liberating. With every poem I completed, I felt a hell of a lot better. And so writing has become my drug of choice.

Whenever I’m depressed or anxious about anything, I write a poem about how I feel at that very moment. Whenever I feel empty or devoid of all feeling I write a poem about what that feels like.

After reading my poetry I realized that I can inspire someone who is suffering in silence to speak up about their pain. So I decided to write a collection of poetry and learn how to self-publish.

So here is my introduction:

Hello, My name is Aurea Fae and I am a depressed college drop out who contemplates suicide almost daily. I currently live in Maryland with my family. I write poetry about my struggle with depression, anxiety, childhood sexual trauma, and negative body image. And more than anything I want anyone who sees a reflection of themselves in my writing to get the help they need in order to heal. Because you deserve it.

I plan on self-publishing my first ever collection of poetry, The Fog, on Amazon sometime next year.

5 thoughts on “Get to know me

  1. Hello Aurea.. that is a beautiful name.. for a beautiful soul. I don’t know you, but I can tell you have a beautiful soul! Your empathy for others is not for nothing (is that a double negative? lo). You definitely CAN help others. You are helping them by expressing your feelings here. And letting those that can relate know they are not alone. No one deserves to go through what you have an I am sorry. And if you have faith in God, I hope you know that you know he WILL bring you out of this depression my love, you just have to look to him.

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  2. Hi Aurea, I know how hard it must be for you to battle suicidal thoughts. I really hope that your blog helps you. I just wanted to let you know that you aren’t alone. Please keep going. I’ve written an article about suicide which I will post tonight or tomorrow and I would love if you checked it out, maybe it could help? ❤

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  3. Hi there, welcome to the blogging world. I too struggled with depression and writing was my way to deal with all my negative emotions. Writing really helped me and I am sure it will help you too. Take care and if you need someone to talk to, feel free to talk to me. I honestly can’t wait to read more posts from you. And yes, your poetry will definitely help others so don’t stop writing!

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